My walk with God has been more like a game of tag. There are times when God has been "it" and He is like ok Heather.. I'm getting really tired of chasing you then He tags me and I'm all.. wooo hooo I'm coming for you God! Where are you? God? Hello? Luckily in my efforts to tag Him, He has shown me that all along He was right there, dwelling within me. I was basically playing a game by myself. Probably looking a little silly to others. I was even told by my close friends that I was "Running". Well when someone speaks to me in riddle, of course I will try and solve it! So I set out on a search. Searching for something to believe in. Of course I ended up right back where I started. So here I am again. I feel as if I am starting over, but with a different outlook. A more focused, loving, balanced quest before me. I am not running, I am not frightened. I am relieved that God knows me, that He loves me and wants me to be in relationship with Him. I am excited every day to get to know Him more. What's ironic is that I pray for friends. Girl friends because I feel as if I need women, their softness, their beauty and motherly love, their sympathy and grace. Not only have I met a group of ladies (that are great and love the LORD ) at our Wednesday small group, but on Tuesday a large group of all women that seem super amazing as well. Then there is Jamie. We were meant to be friends. I know this, I haven't told her, but I bet she knows it too. She has a heart as big as Texas and I know we will add to the value of each others lives. You are probably going.. aww that's great Heather but where exactly is the irony? Well.. God has given me so much more than I deserve, yet in doing so.. He has created a passion in me to accept and discover Him as my friend, ( I bet He devised this little plan while I was "searching" ) He comforts me instead of the tub of ice cream, He listens when I am scared, weary, frustrated, embarrased, insecure or completely lost. His word paves the path my tired feet jump onto and run toward. How I got to this point where my thoughts are clear and my heart is happy.. once again.. friendship. God blessed me with a friend that I can never deny, that I will always revere as beautiful and sanctified, that finds me when I am lost, that gives me direction, that leads the way and that bluntly tells me to STOP and look. Her words cut, they bruise, they damage as they illuminate and destroy the lies the enemy surrounds me with. When she told me that she wants to dance with me in Heaven.. there was a picture of blameless, pure, joyful, harmonious and everlasting friendship that I know was sent from above. Dainelle knows my heart and resides there too. Jesus lives within her and within me. He used her to bring me closer to Him. Thank God! Thank her for being obedient. I never want to be far from Him, I never want to be without His peace which surpasses all understanding. I only want to glorify Him. No other is worthy! So seek and you shall find. Just make sure when you find, you embrace and never let go!
with love H
